did you take your medicine today?
I don't think I'm the only one who has this problem.
I've noticed that when I get pissed off about something people will ask if I've taken my medicine that day. The reason can be something completely understandable, like if someone had promised to do something and then purposefully gone out of her way to make sure she didn't have to do it, and I'll get angry and she'll go, "Whoa, did you take your meds today?" This only serves to make me angrier because why the hell would you ask something like that?
Just because I take medication to stabilize my moods does not mean that I'm unable to feel anything but joy and happiness. It doesn't make me a doormat. Sometimes I'm moody simply because I'm PMSing, or stressed out, or you've done something that warrants an angry response. I mean, I still feel things. I'm not just floating on a cloud of bliss or anything. It takes more to piss me off now that I'm not a bomb waiting to go off, but I still get mad and sad and moody. I'm still human. My Equetro and Wellbutrin aren't magic pills that make me so happy that I'm willing to lie down and be walked all over. I'm not that kind of person.
It makes me think that people miss the point of medication. Medicine is here to even me out and stabilize me. It's here to make sure I do not go off at everything little thing. It is not here to make me numb and unfeeling. I will still yell and cry and scream if the situation warrants it. I do that because if I bottle it up, it will just build and build until I completely lose it.
For the people that know me, the next time I get angry at you, instead of asking me if I've taken my medicine, why don't you ask me what you've done to make me mad? I'll gladly explain my reasoning, and we can probably work it out. If you still think I'm just being crazy. . .well, too bad, 'cause you're wrong.
I've noticed that when I get pissed off about something people will ask if I've taken my medicine that day. The reason can be something completely understandable, like if someone had promised to do something and then purposefully gone out of her way to make sure she didn't have to do it, and I'll get angry and she'll go, "Whoa, did you take your meds today?" This only serves to make me angrier because why the hell would you ask something like that?
Just because I take medication to stabilize my moods does not mean that I'm unable to feel anything but joy and happiness. It doesn't make me a doormat. Sometimes I'm moody simply because I'm PMSing, or stressed out, or you've done something that warrants an angry response. I mean, I still feel things. I'm not just floating on a cloud of bliss or anything. It takes more to piss me off now that I'm not a bomb waiting to go off, but I still get mad and sad and moody. I'm still human. My Equetro and Wellbutrin aren't magic pills that make me so happy that I'm willing to lie down and be walked all over. I'm not that kind of person.
It makes me think that people miss the point of medication. Medicine is here to even me out and stabilize me. It's here to make sure I do not go off at everything little thing. It is not here to make me numb and unfeeling. I will still yell and cry and scream if the situation warrants it. I do that because if I bottle it up, it will just build and build until I completely lose it.
For the people that know me, the next time I get angry at you, instead of asking me if I've taken my medicine, why don't you ask me what you've done to make me mad? I'll gladly explain my reasoning, and we can probably work it out. If you still think I'm just being crazy. . .well, too bad, 'cause you're wrong.
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